I HATE you!

I've had about enough of someone other than my stepmom.

This person is cruel, and heartless, and sometimes I wish I would have never ever met this person.

FUCK MY LIFE!

The end.

So. Damn. Aggravated.

FML, ok?

I am so damn aggravated lately. Even my husband has picked up on the fact that I'm extra sensitive. Ok, he's part of my problem! As much as he thinks it's ALL about my stepmom...it's not. She is a portion of my problem, just as much as you are, alright?

Want to know who else is my problem? My neighbors across the street. Their asses NEED to go already. I am fed up with looking at any of them. It's mainly the husband and the wife. The teenager is well...what...a typical teen. Enough said.

But the husband and wife, omg. I used to be friends with the wife. I can't even believe I was now! I think I just merely felt sorry for her. Sooooooo glad I am not friends with her anymore. I am not gonna go into every reason right here...or else I'd be up all night, and well...I don't want that! The husband really gets under my skin. The effer sits/stands outside like every 5 minutes and stares at everything. He's out there with a beer or a cigarette, or sometimes both, just out there looking like he owns the street. I'm not even kidding. He was outside when I locked the door to get the mail. Effer was just staring away at me as I was walking along the path way that leads to our front door. I am all for wanting to get sunshine every now and then, but when you effin stare at everything, including our neighbors which are some of our close friends it's really nerving! Two of them have even said something.

That, and they leave their dog outside on a chain, and so you have a dog that's barkin his arse off when anyone passes by. He used to not bark at me, but he does now. That poor dog is neglected, and it pisses me off to hell. The other day it was cold as all hell, and that dog was out there on the chain in the front yard. Dude, if I'm cold...imagine how that dog feels!

And, it may seem I am pissed at the world...which I'm not...I'm just so stinkin tired of all of this negativity. Sure...there's been some ok days, but nothing really great ever since my birthday.

Now, the stepmother finally calls me today, after what...a month. She was like, you don't call me anymore, and I miss you, and want to talk to you. Excuse me, but when someone tells you that they're gonna call you no matter if they can make it, or can't make it out to see you to go and visit your Dad's grave...you'd be mad right? Mmhmm. I was fuming. I still am. It hurts me a lot that she couldn't have at least called like she had said she would if she couldn't make it. And, I go out of my way to bring up the idea of going to see my Dad. I didn't have to do that, ya know? But I did. Eff me, huh? No, seriously...eff me. Damn near everyone seems to be against me. You know what, eff all of you!

Eff the ppl across the street.

Eff my stepmother.

and, eff my effin husband. I'm really sorry that he's been through a lot in the past 6 months, but damn...to bring me down and make me feel like crud in the process is not acceptable. He told me tonight that he's not fiesty. Dude...own up to your mistakes. YOU are fiesty. You do get upset at me really easily. So, eff you alright?

I am not kidding when I say that I am about to snap one day soon. I mean, if things keep going the way they are going, I am gonna snap. I've been pushed WAY too far, and I am not dealing with it, ANYMORE!!!

I hope you heard me LOUD & CLEAR! That's the absolute LAST time I'm saying any of this!

What's been going on?

Wow, I didn't realize it's been two weeks since I updated my blog. What have we been up to? Well...my mother in law's birthday came and went, and well...we had a great time. Time always flies so fast when you have fun!

What did we do on their visit? Well...they arrived Friday evening, and my hubby was still at work, so when they arrived we pretty much sat around and talked, and then when my hubby got home, we did pretty much the same. Then on Saturday, we all ate a quick breakfast just as we always do, and then almost always we head to HEB. My mother in law usually likes to get stuff she can't find up where they live, and I'll pretty much go to the big HEB anytime, because well...it's fun! They just have a ton of different stuff there, and while it can be crowded at times, it's still fun to me. Does that make me weird that I enjoy shopping at a really nice, upscale grocery store?!?

Then, after that we all went to eat at McAlister's (as always!) and I had the grilled chicken club just as I always seem to. It was really good. Sometimes it's just ok, but this time it was really good!

We sure had some wonderful weather that day! It was so nice to be outside that day!

After that we went to JCPenney...my mother in law and I love that store. My MIL used her gift card and got herself three new pairs of slacks, and might I add...they were all on clearance I believe. Good deal! I think she said she only spent like $4o or something. That gift card I gave her came in handy :)

I got a brand new top. OMG, I love it! I can't wait to wear it for my hubby's 30th birthday dinner with the inlaws. It's coming up in about two weeks! I wanted to dress up for this wonderful occasion! It's only once you turn 30! Plus the top will be appropriate for so many other occasions! Might wear it to the HS reunion at Crush if we go :) More on that in an upcoming entry :)

That evening was fun. Very low-key at home. We got takeout from Spring Creek barbeque for dinner. Hey...it was what my mother in law wanted. We ALL love the barbeque from there. So good! The conversation at dinner was awesome. I was laughing so hard, almost in tears...omg but it was great :) My mother in law cracks me the hell up!

As far as what my hubby and I been up to...the same ol, same ol...school, and work, and everything in between. Ohh yeah, and I've been starting some spring cleaning! Gotta work on that today actually :)

So...less than two weeks is hubby's birthday...the big ol 30! Woot woot! I'm excited. I'm irritated that he never gave me any hints on what he wants...so I'm gonna have to come up with my own ideas, and then tell his Mom to prolly just get him a gift card. It's hard to really buy for anyone anymore. Hubby usually gives me money or a gift card because well...everyone knows that I like to buy what I want for myself. I think we are getting out sometime on Saturday, so I'll do his shopping then!

Gosh this entry is getting long...well, in that case I better go...got stuff to do anyways.

Bye :)

Fun weekend ahead & other updates

So, my husband is really sorry for treating me like crap ever since after my birthday. I want to believe him, I really do. I hope he is sorry, because let me tell you...he DID hurt me, and very recently too, within the last couple days. So...I told him...I'm not throwing you a 30th birthday. That seemed to really get his attention. He even said, "well, you want a 30th birthday, guess I shouldn't throw you one now?" "Um, yeah...I'd like one, but I wanted to tell him YOU didn't deserve one." I didn't say anything at that point, but kept my mouth shut. And...I still might...if I see some improvements in him. We'll see. Got to see how he is in the next week, and then I'll know. Reason why I say week is that I have to talk to my neighbor to have her help me plan it.

Anyways.

We do have a fun weekend ahead! My inlaws will be here late tonight! We'll be celebrating my awesome mother in law's birthday. I can't believe it's mid-March already! The weather is really starting to get beautiful. I wonder just what we'll be doing on Saturday...maybe see if she wants to go to JCPenney's to use all of those coupons I got in the mail?!? JCPenney is generous with coupons, and they have good stuff, including Sephora...and a really nice hair salon which I am proud to say my favorite hairdresser works there! Veronica is awesome!

In the meantime, I do believe I have a busy day ahead of me...got laundry to work on, pick up all the loose ends in the rooms, fix up each of their beds, put out fresh towels, schoolwork, etc. There's always something to do!

This Monday I am gonna get back on with my job search hard core! I have been out of work for entirely too long! I'd like to get a job really soon...especially with all of the college students and high schoolers and their summer break coming in May! Gotta really get out there and get some app's filled out :)

Alright well...that's all for now!

Hope ya'll have a good weekend, and hey...TGIF!

What bone can I pick with you today?

Allow me to tell you that my husband isn't always nice. He does this often...he'll pick at me about everything I do. It's nervewracking. Now, I know that there are some things about me that I need to change, and I am making a good effort to change them.

He fails to tell me about the good things about myself. It's always about the bad things I do. I am sick of it. I will effin leave him. I'm already fed up with my stepmom, and maybe soon to be my husband if he doesn't change his ways. I'm serious. I've said it time and time again. I deserve better than this, and I will get it.

I am sick and tired of being hurt, and having a crummy life. It's not good enough what I do for anyone.

No more mrs. nice girl!

Empowered

I have a sense of empowerment now. Yep, I am slowly letting go of someone in my life, and I've never felt better. I used to love this person, I did, but in the last several years...it's drastically dwindled. There's only so much I can take, but when other people (in this instance, teenagers) in the family start talking about you as well...then that's not a good thing. God, my stepmother is a bitch.

So...I am NOT dealing with it anymore. AT ALL. Not calling me to even tell me you can't make it to come and pick me up so we can go and see my Dad was the LAST straw, and now that I find out that others are talking about me on facebook (and then privating the whole message when I got word that it was about me) I'm officially FED up.

That's just great...she blew ALL of her portion (maybe all of it, I'm really not sure) of my Dad's inheritance. And...I was mentioned LAST in the will. It was going from oldest to youngest, which in my opinion IS not fair. Those were not his kids. My stepmother influenced him to put HER kids in his will. Eff her!

I am calling the county clerk in Austin to get the information on her will. I'm taking action. One thing you don't do is screw with me, or my family. Yes, she actually has screwed with my family...well, my husband's parents actually. These people are very important in my life. Very important. Almost as much as my husband. You cross serious boundaries when you screw with family & friends...more importantly family.

I've never felt so empowered as I do right now...it feels awesome. I might be hurt inside, which I am...but I also feel empowered because I'm ready to kick ass.

Very miserable...

My hubby and I have both been sick. Well, my hubby got sick right after he got back from Del Rio, because I was feeling a bit under the weather already. By the time he got back from Del Rio, I was feeling better, then...whatdoyaknow...I got sick AGAIN! Yep. The day we were supposed to go visit my Dad (for his 7 year anniv. passing). We were headed out in our neighborhood when I suddenly felt a horrible headache come on. I went to go and lie down, and a couple hrs later I was experiencing the WORST sore throat, and I was developing a fever. Needless to say I felt like complete crap the last two days. I believe I had strep throat...my hubby thought otherwise. Uh, I looked up the symptoms and I was experiencing darn near ALL of them, ha.

This afternoon was when I started to feel a LOT better. Hubby even said I sounded more upbeat. Haha, far from upbeat babe...but one day really soon I'll be back to my normal self!

So, anyways...been in bed, drinkin water & oj, and eatin soup. Blech! Soooo glad that part is over with. Only so much chicken soup I can take. The progresso one was totally disgusting. The broth was sorta thick-like. Mmhmm...nasty. So for lunch today I ate a burrito that hubby bought at Kroger. They were alright. It tasted better than soup, I tell ya, ha.

What else is going on? Well, we're now in our Spring semester at school...yep, me and hubbs. College students. My hubby has also started his new job! Yep, completed training and everything. Now he's at his home store. He is a back of house supervisor at Toys 'R' Us. I am proud of him for all that he's done. Still working at CVS, now at TRU, and going to college. Hopefully I can get a job soon! *crosses fingers* Gotta start looking hard again. My inlaws will be here in about a week and a half. Yep. My mother in law's birthday is that Saturday. We usually go to lunch and a nice place for dinner. I'm really excited to see them, as always! Well, since my own stepmother is a cruel bitch. I'm not going to get into details about that, but I'm really pissed off at her. I sorta feel like my MIL can be like my Mom! She's a great person. I really admire her.

Wow, it's 1:30 am! Geez...and I'm still sick, and AWAKE? Yes, I'm not too smart to be staying up so late aren't I? No, siree. I'll wrap up this entry real soon, promise. But first...gotta tell you about the Bachelor finale.

What a dipshit Jake is! I can't believe he picked Vienna. I mean, I saw in the spoilers that he was going to pick her in the end, but I was made aware that sometimes the spoilers can be wrong, so I was crossing my fingers it'd be Tenley. Gah...poor Tenley...she really fell for Jake, and then gets dumped. She would have been a much better pick. Cute, got a good head on her shoulders, and whatever that Jake said that they didn't have chemistry? Umm...he must be an idiot...because he told Tenley that he loved her! Ugh...anyways. Saw that Ali is the new bachelorette. I am not sure I am going to watch her season. I liked Ali at the beginning of Jake's season...but when she let Vienna become her main focus...I lost interest. Ok, I know...we all hate Vienna, but don't center your world around hers. Makes me wonder what kind of a Bachelorette she'll be, ya know? Maybe she'll be a good one, who knows. I'm honestly tired of the whole Bachelor/Bachelorette shows...they always disappoint us all in the end...well except for Trista and Ryan. Those were the days.

Ok, so yeah...it's twenty minutes till 2am! Yeahhhhh I better go...and get some zzzzzz's.

Night night ya'll!