Life has been so up and down lately, well...pretty much since 2 years ago with the truck accident, and all.
I am sincerely apologizing for all of the mean stuff I have said. For my hubby...I take it all back. I love you. I've loved you for almost 9 years, and I really hope that we'll make it many many MANY more years together.
As for my stepmom, well...that's out of the question. She's managed to just call me that one time two weeks ago. Yep...pathetic. I have nothing more to say regarding her. Hubby, and my inlaws are all pretty much sick of her.
Alright...so my hubby's 30TH birthday is on Monday! I can't freakin' believe it. I hope this weekend will be an awesome one for him! Actually I KNOW it will be awesome. My super inlaws will be arriving TONIGHT! We always have a ball with them! He is so deserving. I really hope this year is amazing for him!
Well, I'll see you all after this weekend, and be sure to update you on my hubby's birthday weekend with the inlaws, and more. Monday we have a fun day planned...I have errands to run, but we're gonna make GOOD use of some birthday coupons he's gotten (aka: FREE FOOD for him, haha not for me...but my bday will be coming up in a little over 5 months, so I'll patiently wait!)
Ok, yeah...I really better go and get some sleep...it's 3 am! I always stay up soooooo late. Bad, bad habit!
Friday, April 9, 2010
Monday, April 5, 2010
Someone is about to get smacked!
Ok. I am so freaking PISSED.
It all happened when I checked my email.
Effin' professor changed up the WHOLE final exam.
Like WOAH.
In a way that would totally eff with me.
It is ALL effing essays. FML. I could just about smack a bitch right now. I hate essays, and maybehopefullymyhubby will help me *crosses fingers* I'm gonna be extra sweet to him! I'm praying to God he'll help me, if not I will probably fail this class.
I am giving her the absolute worst evaluation next week. Seriously, who goes and changes up the ENTIRE exam? Maybe she thought it was entirely too easy. Multiple choice? Yeah, I'll take this any day.
But you have to actually describe what to do in real life where you have to use excel. Which would be easy if I actually understood excel, but I don't.
fu-fu-fu-FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKK! Please God, let my hubby help me. I know we've been going through hard times, but I need his help like NO other right now. Please, let him say yes :)
Thanks.
It all happened when I checked my email.
Effin' professor changed up the WHOLE final exam.
Like WOAH.
In a way that would totally eff with me.
It is ALL effing essays. FML. I could just about smack a bitch right now. I hate essays, and maybehopefullymyhubby will help me *crosses fingers* I'm gonna be extra sweet to him! I'm praying to God he'll help me, if not I will probably fail this class.
I am giving her the absolute worst evaluation next week. Seriously, who goes and changes up the ENTIRE exam? Maybe she thought it was entirely too easy. Multiple choice? Yeah, I'll take this any day.
But you have to actually describe what to do in real life where you have to use excel. Which would be easy if I actually understood excel, but I don't.
fu-fu-fu-FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKK! Please God, let my hubby help me. I know we've been going through hard times, but I need his help like NO other right now. Please, let him say yes :)
Thanks.
Monday, March 29, 2010
I HATE you!
I've had about enough of someone other than my stepmom.
This person is cruel, and heartless, and sometimes I wish I would have never ever met this person.
FUCK MY LIFE!
The end.
This person is cruel, and heartless, and sometimes I wish I would have never ever met this person.
FUCK MY LIFE!
The end.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
So. Damn. Aggravated.
FML, ok?
I am so damn aggravated lately. Even my husband has picked up on the fact that I'm extra sensitive. Ok, he's part of my problem! As much as he thinks it's ALL about my stepmom...it's not. She is a portion of my problem, just as much as you are, alright?
Want to know who else is my problem? My neighbors across the street. Their asses NEED to go already. I am fed up with looking at any of them. It's mainly the husband and the wife. The teenager is well...what...a typical teen. Enough said.
But the husband and wife, omg. I used to be friends with the wife. I can't even believe I was now! I think I just merely felt sorry for her. Sooooooo glad I am not friends with her anymore. I am not gonna go into every reason right here...or else I'd be up all night, and well...I don't want that! The husband really gets under my skin. The effer sits/stands outside like every 5 minutes and stares at everything. He's out there with a beer or a cigarette, or sometimes both, just out there looking like he owns the street. I'm not even kidding. He was outside when I locked the door to get the mail. Effer was just staring away at me as I was walking along the path way that leads to our front door. I am all for wanting to get sunshine every now and then, but when you effin stare at everything, including our neighbors which are some of our close friends it's really nerving! Two of them have even said something.
That, and they leave their dog outside on a chain, and so you have a dog that's barkin his arse off when anyone passes by. He used to not bark at me, but he does now. That poor dog is neglected, and it pisses me off to hell. The other day it was cold as all hell, and that dog was out there on the chain in the front yard. Dude, if I'm cold...imagine how that dog feels!
And, it may seem I am pissed at the world...which I'm not...I'm just so stinkin tired of all of this negativity. Sure...there's been some ok days, but nothing really great ever since my birthday.
Now, the stepmother finally calls me today, after what...a month. She was like, you don't call me anymore, and I miss you, and want to talk to you. Excuse me, but when someone tells you that they're gonna call you no matter if they can make it, or can't make it out to see you to go and visit your Dad's grave...you'd be mad right? Mmhmm. I was fuming. I still am. It hurts me a lot that she couldn't have at least called like she had said she would if she couldn't make it. And, I go out of my way to bring up the idea of going to see my Dad. I didn't have to do that, ya know? But I did. Eff me, huh? No, seriously...eff me. Damn near everyone seems to be against me. You know what, eff all of you!
Eff the ppl across the street.
Eff my stepmother.
and, eff my effin husband. I'm really sorry that he's been through a lot in the past 6 months, but damn...to bring me down and make me feel like crud in the process is not acceptable. He told me tonight that he's not fiesty. Dude...own up to your mistakes. YOU are fiesty. You do get upset at me really easily. So, eff you alright?
I am not kidding when I say that I am about to snap one day soon. I mean, if things keep going the way they are going, I am gonna snap. I've been pushed WAY too far, and I am not dealing with it, ANYMORE!!!
I hope you heard me LOUD & CLEAR! That's the absolute LAST time I'm saying any of this!
I am so damn aggravated lately. Even my husband has picked up on the fact that I'm extra sensitive. Ok, he's part of my problem! As much as he thinks it's ALL about my stepmom...it's not. She is a portion of my problem, just as much as you are, alright?
Want to know who else is my problem? My neighbors across the street. Their asses NEED to go already. I am fed up with looking at any of them. It's mainly the husband and the wife. The teenager is well...what...a typical teen. Enough said.
But the husband and wife, omg. I used to be friends with the wife. I can't even believe I was now! I think I just merely felt sorry for her. Sooooooo glad I am not friends with her anymore. I am not gonna go into every reason right here...or else I'd be up all night, and well...I don't want that! The husband really gets under my skin. The effer sits/stands outside like every 5 minutes and stares at everything. He's out there with a beer or a cigarette, or sometimes both, just out there looking like he owns the street. I'm not even kidding. He was outside when I locked the door to get the mail. Effer was just staring away at me as I was walking along the path way that leads to our front door. I am all for wanting to get sunshine every now and then, but when you effin stare at everything, including our neighbors which are some of our close friends it's really nerving! Two of them have even said something.
That, and they leave their dog outside on a chain, and so you have a dog that's barkin his arse off when anyone passes by. He used to not bark at me, but he does now. That poor dog is neglected, and it pisses me off to hell. The other day it was cold as all hell, and that dog was out there on the chain in the front yard. Dude, if I'm cold...imagine how that dog feels!
And, it may seem I am pissed at the world...which I'm not...I'm just so stinkin tired of all of this negativity. Sure...there's been some ok days, but nothing really great ever since my birthday.
Now, the stepmother finally calls me today, after what...a month. She was like, you don't call me anymore, and I miss you, and want to talk to you. Excuse me, but when someone tells you that they're gonna call you no matter if they can make it, or can't make it out to see you to go and visit your Dad's grave...you'd be mad right? Mmhmm. I was fuming. I still am. It hurts me a lot that she couldn't have at least called like she had said she would if she couldn't make it. And, I go out of my way to bring up the idea of going to see my Dad. I didn't have to do that, ya know? But I did. Eff me, huh? No, seriously...eff me. Damn near everyone seems to be against me. You know what, eff all of you!
Eff the ppl across the street.
Eff my stepmother.
and, eff my effin husband. I'm really sorry that he's been through a lot in the past 6 months, but damn...to bring me down and make me feel like crud in the process is not acceptable. He told me tonight that he's not fiesty. Dude...own up to your mistakes. YOU are fiesty. You do get upset at me really easily. So, eff you alright?
I am not kidding when I say that I am about to snap one day soon. I mean, if things keep going the way they are going, I am gonna snap. I've been pushed WAY too far, and I am not dealing with it, ANYMORE!!!
I hope you heard me LOUD & CLEAR! That's the absolute LAST time I'm saying any of this!
What's been going on?
Wow, I didn't realize it's been two weeks since I updated my blog. What have we been up to? Well...my mother in law's birthday came and went, and well...we had a great time. Time always flies so fast when you have fun!
What did we do on their visit? Well...they arrived Friday evening, and my hubby was still at work, so when they arrived we pretty much sat around and talked, and then when my hubby got home, we did pretty much the same. Then on Saturday, we all ate a quick breakfast just as we always do, and then almost always we head to HEB. My mother in law usually likes to get stuff she can't find up where they live, and I'll pretty much go to the big HEB anytime, because well...it's fun! They just have a ton of different stuff there, and while it can be crowded at times, it's still fun to me. Does that make me weird that I enjoy shopping at a really nice, upscale grocery store?!?
Then, after that we all went to eat at McAlister's (as always!) and I had the grilled chicken club just as I always seem to. It was really good. Sometimes it's just ok, but this time it was really good!
We sure had some wonderful weather that day! It was so nice to be outside that day!
After that we went to JCPenney...my mother in law and I love that store. My MIL used her gift card and got herself three new pairs of slacks, and might I add...they were all on clearance I believe. Good deal! I think she said she only spent like $4o or something. That gift card I gave her came in handy :)
I got a brand new top. OMG, I love it! I can't wait to wear it for my hubby's 30th birthday dinner with the inlaws. It's coming up in about two weeks! I wanted to dress up for this wonderful occasion! It's only once you turn 30! Plus the top will be appropriate for so many other occasions! Might wear it to the HS reunion at Crush if we go :) More on that in an upcoming entry :)
That evening was fun. Very low-key at home. We got takeout from Spring Creek barbeque for dinner. Hey...it was what my mother in law wanted. We ALL love the barbeque from there. So good! The conversation at dinner was awesome. I was laughing so hard, almost in tears...omg but it was great :) My mother in law cracks me the hell up!
As far as what my hubby and I been up to...the same ol, same ol...school, and work, and everything in between. Ohh yeah, and I've been starting some spring cleaning! Gotta work on that today actually :)
So...less than two weeks is hubby's birthday...the big ol 30! Woot woot! I'm excited. I'm irritated that he never gave me any hints on what he wants...so I'm gonna have to come up with my own ideas, and then tell his Mom to prolly just get him a gift card. It's hard to really buy for anyone anymore. Hubby usually gives me money or a gift card because well...everyone knows that I like to buy what I want for myself. I think we are getting out sometime on Saturday, so I'll do his shopping then!
Gosh this entry is getting long...well, in that case I better go...got stuff to do anyways.
Bye :)
What did we do on their visit? Well...they arrived Friday evening, and my hubby was still at work, so when they arrived we pretty much sat around and talked, and then when my hubby got home, we did pretty much the same. Then on Saturday, we all ate a quick breakfast just as we always do, and then almost always we head to HEB. My mother in law usually likes to get stuff she can't find up where they live, and I'll pretty much go to the big HEB anytime, because well...it's fun! They just have a ton of different stuff there, and while it can be crowded at times, it's still fun to me. Does that make me weird that I enjoy shopping at a really nice, upscale grocery store?!?
Then, after that we all went to eat at McAlister's (as always!) and I had the grilled chicken club just as I always seem to. It was really good. Sometimes it's just ok, but this time it was really good!
We sure had some wonderful weather that day! It was so nice to be outside that day!
After that we went to JCPenney...my mother in law and I love that store. My MIL used her gift card and got herself three new pairs of slacks, and might I add...they were all on clearance I believe. Good deal! I think she said she only spent like $4o or something. That gift card I gave her came in handy :)
I got a brand new top. OMG, I love it! I can't wait to wear it for my hubby's 30th birthday dinner with the inlaws. It's coming up in about two weeks! I wanted to dress up for this wonderful occasion! It's only once you turn 30! Plus the top will be appropriate for so many other occasions! Might wear it to the HS reunion at Crush if we go :) More on that in an upcoming entry :)
That evening was fun. Very low-key at home. We got takeout from Spring Creek barbeque for dinner. Hey...it was what my mother in law wanted. We ALL love the barbeque from there. So good! The conversation at dinner was awesome. I was laughing so hard, almost in tears...omg but it was great :) My mother in law cracks me the hell up!
As far as what my hubby and I been up to...the same ol, same ol...school, and work, and everything in between. Ohh yeah, and I've been starting some spring cleaning! Gotta work on that today actually :)
So...less than two weeks is hubby's birthday...the big ol 30! Woot woot! I'm excited. I'm irritated that he never gave me any hints on what he wants...so I'm gonna have to come up with my own ideas, and then tell his Mom to prolly just get him a gift card. It's hard to really buy for anyone anymore. Hubby usually gives me money or a gift card because well...everyone knows that I like to buy what I want for myself. I think we are getting out sometime on Saturday, so I'll do his shopping then!
Gosh this entry is getting long...well, in that case I better go...got stuff to do anyways.
Bye :)
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Fun weekend ahead & other updates
So, my husband is really sorry for treating me like crap ever since after my birthday. I want to believe him, I really do. I hope he is sorry, because let me tell you...he DID hurt me, and very recently too, within the last couple days. So...I told him...I'm not throwing you a 30th birthday. That seemed to really get his attention. He even said, "well, you want a 30th birthday, guess I shouldn't throw you one now?" "Um, yeah...I'd like one, but I wanted to tell him YOU didn't deserve one." I didn't say anything at that point, but kept my mouth shut. And...I still might...if I see some improvements in him. We'll see. Got to see how he is in the next week, and then I'll know. Reason why I say week is that I have to talk to my neighbor to have her help me plan it.
Anyways.
We do have a fun weekend ahead! My inlaws will be here late tonight! We'll be celebrating my awesome mother in law's birthday. I can't believe it's mid-March already! The weather is really starting to get beautiful. I wonder just what we'll be doing on Saturday...maybe see if she wants to go to JCPenney's to use all of those coupons I got in the mail?!? JCPenney is generous with coupons, and they have good stuff, including Sephora...and a really nice hair salon which I am proud to say my favorite hairdresser works there! Veronica is awesome!
In the meantime, I do believe I have a busy day ahead of me...got laundry to work on, pick up all the loose ends in the rooms, fix up each of their beds, put out fresh towels, schoolwork, etc. There's always something to do!
This Monday I am gonna get back on with my job search hard core! I have been out of work for entirely too long! I'd like to get a job really soon...especially with all of the college students and high schoolers and their summer break coming in May! Gotta really get out there and get some app's filled out :)
Alright well...that's all for now!
Hope ya'll have a good weekend, and hey...TGIF!
Anyways.
We do have a fun weekend ahead! My inlaws will be here late tonight! We'll be celebrating my awesome mother in law's birthday. I can't believe it's mid-March already! The weather is really starting to get beautiful. I wonder just what we'll be doing on Saturday...maybe see if she wants to go to JCPenney's to use all of those coupons I got in the mail?!? JCPenney is generous with coupons, and they have good stuff, including Sephora...and a really nice hair salon which I am proud to say my favorite hairdresser works there! Veronica is awesome!
In the meantime, I do believe I have a busy day ahead of me...got laundry to work on, pick up all the loose ends in the rooms, fix up each of their beds, put out fresh towels, schoolwork, etc. There's always something to do!
This Monday I am gonna get back on with my job search hard core! I have been out of work for entirely too long! I'd like to get a job really soon...especially with all of the college students and high schoolers and their summer break coming in May! Gotta really get out there and get some app's filled out :)
Alright well...that's all for now!
Hope ya'll have a good weekend, and hey...TGIF!
Saturday, March 6, 2010
What bone can I pick with you today?
Allow me to tell you that my husband isn't always nice. He does this often...he'll pick at me about everything I do. It's nervewracking. Now, I know that there are some things about me that I need to change, and I am making a good effort to change them.
He fails to tell me about the good things about myself. It's always about the bad things I do. I am sick of it. I will effin leave him. I'm already fed up with my stepmom, and maybe soon to be my husband if he doesn't change his ways. I'm serious. I've said it time and time again. I deserve better than this, and I will get it.
I am sick and tired of being hurt, and having a crummy life. It's not good enough what I do for anyone.
No more mrs. nice girl!
He fails to tell me about the good things about myself. It's always about the bad things I do. I am sick of it. I will effin leave him. I'm already fed up with my stepmom, and maybe soon to be my husband if he doesn't change his ways. I'm serious. I've said it time and time again. I deserve better than this, and I will get it.
I am sick and tired of being hurt, and having a crummy life. It's not good enough what I do for anyone.
No more mrs. nice girl!
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